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  Chapter Two

  Olivia

  “You were my first love, Olivia, There is no way I can allow for you to carry this nigga’s baby. See I got people outside of all their people houses. As we speak, their shit is getting ran up in. I wanted to personally get you myself,” he said and stabbed me in the back with something sharp. My hands moved fast as I pulled my gun out. I put it to his head and pulled the trigger.

  “O”, you hear me?” Kasam asked as he grabbed my arm. I pulled my gun out and pressed it to his head. He quickly grabbed it frowning at me.

  “Aye look I know it’s game time, but don’t ever pull no fucking gun out on me. Shit a nigga is not going to be held responsible for what happens if you do that shit again,” he said sitting my gun down onto the table. I nodded while looking at him. I was still in a daze. My body was sore, but I was thinking about everything but recovering. Kadar was on his way home, but he wasn’t making it here quick enough. I had an emergency C-section after I killed Raynard in the park. The only reason his brother escaped was because he took off running like a bitch and my girl was more focused on filling Raynard’s ass full of bullets than catching Royce. When it was all said and done, he had over forty bullets in his body including the two I put in his head. I didn’t fuck around.

  Kadar had spent way too fucking long in Mexico while we scoured the city in search of Drew. The state of Michigan held temporary custody of Shad that was still in the hospital because he was born prematurely. Aamil was unfortunately in jail for the murder of Mina’s mother. Mina was nowhere to be found, but I had my bitches out looking for her and if nobody else could find her, I knew they would be able to catch up to her shady ass.

  My Bella cooed on the other side of the room getting our attention. Ameer made it to her before I did and he picked her up. Drew had been missing for damn near two weeks. I knew the guys were filled with murderous thoughts because they hadn’t been saying much since things had gone down. When we were with the family, they listened to Erin and Sophie worry over Drew and while we were together, all we talked about was getting Drew back.

  I let Ameer feed his niece while I sat in my seat. My knife wound was slowly healing and truthfully I was all fucked up, but I didn’t wanna be the weakest link so I kept that shit to myself. They was already doubting me because I was a woman so I had to show them that I could go just as hard as they did. I wasn’t going to sit this one out plus I felt like I owed it to Drew to find her for my own personal reasons. A secret that haunted me to this day.

  “Look it’s like this them niggas working with somebody we just don’t know who. Until shit gets sorted, we going to stay in this cabin up here and if we do hit the city, we never go alone. We cannot kill Royce until he takes us to Drew. Kadar will be here in the morning, but our business associate Angel is pulling up. His pops was Mason's right hand man and business partner. I've known him for years and he's cool as fuck. He wanted to help so he flew in from Chicago. I'ma go let him in," Ameer said and walked off. Kasam ran his hands over his face as my phone buzzed. I knew who it was I just didn’t care to answer.

  “That Kadar?” Kasam asked in his deep voice. I nodded my head while still looking down at my phone. “Look right now on some real shit, I’m mad as fuck at his ass. Yeah, Mason was sick, but this nigga been gone for two fucking weeks while the family been down trying to work all of this shit out. It’s like that nigga just said fuck us,” Kasam complained. Hell saying shit that we were all thinking. I felt like he really gave no fucks when it came to me and Bella. The minute he knew what happened with Raynard and me, he should have been here. Instead, he told me some lame ass story about somebody trying to attack his grandfather and Mason. I guess their safety was more important than his family’s. My eyes started to water the more I thought about it and I quickly wiped my tears away. I wasn’t even wearing his fucking ring. Shit what for? Kadar should have walked back here if he had to. I just wanted to feel like I was his number one priority, but I was with his family once again while he did him.

  “You can cry ma. You carried that nigga’s baby, gained all type of fucking weight and shit. Face got fat with your nose spreading and shit. Hair broke the fuck off taking your damn edges with it. I saw you throwing that weave in to try to hide it and for him to pay you back like this. I know that shit gotta hurt. I love that nigga, but this shit ain’t cool,” Kasam said to me. I put my head down onto the table and I sighed. I hated feeling like this. Kadar was supposed to be different, but he turned out to be just like all of the other niggas that I had met. I said a quick prayer and pulled myself together. Now was not the time for me to be falling apart. I could do that later in the privacy of my own bedroom.

  “So I have my girls out on the hunt for Mina. Aamil said that her money should be low, so she’s probably back dancing. Pull a bitch out of her comfort zone and she’ll go back to what she knows to get money. My girls will find that bitch and force her to come up with the truth," I stopped talking as Ameer stepped into the room with one of the sexiest men I had ever seen. His slanted eyes scanned the room and landed on me. I felt extremely uncomfortable under his intense gaze as he licked his full pink lips. Just from his presence, I was rattled. He reminded me so much of Ameer. I would never tell anyone, but if I had a shot at any of Kadar’s brothers before I got with him, the only one that I would ever wanna fuck with was Ameer. That nigga was in boss mode daily with his fine ass.

  "Kasam and Olivia, this is Angel. I've known this motherfucka right here for years and I trust him. He's loyal and one of the most humble people I know. He flew in to help and is going to be staying with us until his house is done being renovated. He’s actually moving to Michigan. Angel, this is my sis and my younger brother Kasam," Ameer said and nodded towards Kasam and I. Kasam slowly stood up and walked over to Angel. They exchanged a few words and Kasam walked back to the table. I looked at Angel and smiled. I was stuck. His name was Angel, but there was nothing sweet about him. He stood tall as Ameer with a stocky build and handsome face. He had sun kissed, caramel colored skin with a thin mustache and small goatee. With wavy black hair that sat low on his head. He wore casual clothes; a Nike muscle shirt with Nike jogging pants. It was the way my body responded to his gaze that had me worried. For some reason, he had me uneasy when that never happened. The last time it happened to me I met Kadar and shit we got a kid together now. I needed to stop lusting over this man and get my shit together.

  "It’s nice to meet you, Olivia," he said making his way over to me and pulling me out of my thoughts. I stood up looking basic as hell in my white tee and yoga pants and shook his hand. He pulled me into a hug and damn didn’t he smell like heaven. Briefly, I closed my eyes and inhaled his intoxicating cologne. I pulled back and looked up at him. I could feel my light cheeks darken.

  "Hi, Angel."

  "Hey," he said grinning down at me.

  "....Y'all finished? Or do y'all need a minute? Shit I didn’t know this was the fucking love connection and shit," Kasam ranted with an attitude. Angel chuckled, but I was beyond embarrassed. I looked at Ameer and he was watching me with a thoughtful look on his face. I walked over to him and grabbed my now sleeping baby. I gently kissed her forehead and looked at the men.

  "Um, I should go lay her down," I said to no one in particular. Ameer sat down along with Angel at the dining room table. Angel pulled out his cellphone, but his eyes were still on me. He was so fucking big and his presence was so demanding. Ameer had always been a bossy ass nigga, but next to Angel, I really couldn’t tell who was the bossiest. Angel seemed to command attention even mine.

  "Could you come back afterwards? I wanted to ask you some questions about this Royce guy?" Angel asked me. I could hear an accent, but I didn’t know what race he was. He definitely was black, but he looked like he could be mixed with Mexican maybe. Whatever it was it had created a fine ass man that I couldn’t stop staring at. He wasn’t as dark as Kadar and Aamil, but he shared similar features as them. The full lips and hooded eyes and th
e hair. Shit it looked so soft and silky plus he was from Mexico.

  "I guess," I said trying not to ogle him and quickly walked off. I went up to my bedroom in the cabin and put Bella in her crib. I changed into a cute lounge outfit that showcased my curves and baby weight then combed my fingers through my hair. I quickly moisturized my face before I went back downstairs. The men were now smoking blunts and drinking on an amber colored liquor. I sat down and they all looked at me. Ameer passed me his blunt and smiled.

  "Nice outfit," he said in a voice just for my ears and I cleared my throat.

  "Bella had woke up and spit up on my t-shirt," I lied feeling silly as hell for even changing my clothes. Angel looked up at me and his brown eyes softened. He was so fucking fine.

  "So tell me everything you know about Royce and Raynard. We need to get Drew home immediately," he said going straight into boss mode. I sat up in my seat and he glanced down at my breast quickly before looking me in the eyes. Kasam was lost in his own world as he puffed on his blunt, but Ameer was watching Angel and I closely and even though we weren’t doing anything wrong, I felt like I was. I turned off my hormones and told him what I knew. It took me an hour to explain my past relationship with Raynard. I didn’t like to tell people my business, but I wanted him to know about Raynard and his family. How his brothers made excuses for why he had killed my son instead of kicking his ass. Or how his mother said that I was being too talkative and setting him off. They all feared him and now that he was gone, I wasn’t sure how strong they really were. He was their leader for sure. Angel just stared at me once I was done like I was Superwoman.

  “Damn that’s some shit. I’m sorry you had to go through that. You are one strong ass woman for real. You basically feel like Royce is a pussy?” he asked.

  “Yeah pretty much.” Kasam chuckled and stood up. He grabbed his stuff off of the table and looked at us. He was good and high.

  “Alright y’all I’m out. I’m so high I’m over here seeing unicorns and shit. I gotta go to bed before I start shooting at nothing,” he said and walked away. Angel chuckled and looked at Ameer and me.

  “Man he’s funny as fuck, but this weed is strong. What room can I crash in?”

  Ameer grabbed his phone and stood up. His hazel eyes were glazed over as well.

  “Any room that is on the first floor. They should all be empty. Shit I feel Kasam. I’m high as fuck though, so I’m’ a go to lay down too. Come on “O”,” he said to me. I looked up at him and cocked my head to the side. I wasn’t Sophie.

  “I’ll be laying down in a minute. I gotta go clean out my breast pump that’s in the kitchen.” Ameer stared at me for a minute. He nodded and walked off. I stood up not wanting his ass to try and double back and I went into the kitchen. I could feel Angel’s body heat behind me as I went into the kitchen. I really wanted him to just lay down so I wouldn’t have to look at his sexy ass any longer.

  “My pops grew up with Mason, but I haven’t seen Kadar in years. I guess Mason and my pops had something for beautiful black woman, but I don’t blame them. I love a sexy ass brown skinned woman too. Kadar grew up in New York and I was raised in Chicago so we didn’t get a chance to be around each other. Don’t get me wrong, I love the Chi, I just had to leave. Needed something new you know,” he said leaning against the counter. I washed off the breast pump contents with my back to him.

  “Why the change? Did something happen?” Angel walked over to me and his hip was damn near pressing against mine.

  “Yeah, I divorced my kid’s mother and her family is all over Chicago. I didn’t wanna see her or them. I been wanting to move to the “D” for a while anyway so I said fuck it and packed my shit up. My kids will be here soon, but where’s Kadar? Didn’t you say you handled Raynard?”

  I cut the water off and turned to him. Up close I could see every tiny detail of his handsome facial features. His lips were so full and outlined neatly with his mustache. He had a chiseled chin with slanted brown eyes that were heavily lashed then his hair. It was just a glossy black that I wanted to softly rub. His body was big and his muscles looked hard as they inadvertently flexed in his shirt. I felt silly the moment I realized I was just staring at him.

  “He had to visit his father. He was really sick.”

  “But what about you and his daughter? Who was supposed to look after y’all? Ameer?” he asked and leaned towards me.

  “O” you ready for bed?” Ameer asked stepping into the kitchen with Sophie by his side. I looked at her and I could see her admiring Angel’s sexy ass. I put my breast pump stuff away and looked at Angel. He was still leaning against the sink, but he was now looking at Ameer. I didn’t appreciate Ameer’s ass checking in on me, but I knew he was just looking out for his brother even though he really had nothing to worry about.

  “Yeah, I am, goodnight, Angel,” I replied not bothering to look back. Ameer kissed Sophie on the forehead and looked at me.

  “Sophie can walk you to your room. I gotta talk to Angel,” he said and I walked off not bothering to respond to him. I wasn’t his fucking wife so I didn’t need him trying to control me. Sophie gave me an apologetic smiled and walked next to me. She went to her bedroom and I went to mine.

  ****

  I awoke the next morning to Kadar kissing me softly all over my face. He smelled so good and he was even darker from being gone just that short amount of time. My eyes connected with his and he blew out a breath he seemed to be holding.

  "Shit she's beautiful. Thank you," he said and kissed me on the lips. I wanted to fight the kiss, but I couldn’t. I missed him and pretending that I didn’t wasn’t going to benefit either one of us. I gave in kissing him back just as hard as he was kissing me. His hand slowly slid down my stomach and into my underwear. I squirmed as his fingers slid across my opening.

  "I read online you was good after two weeks," he said breaking away from the kiss so that he could take his shirt off. Kadar had New York City’s skyline tatted on the center of his chest, but somehow he had gotten Bella's name tatted into the clouds. I traced over her name as he looked down at me. His silky black hair was cut low to his head and his beard had grown out so it was long like his brothers. He looked good as always.

  "I'm sorry I couldn’t get back sooner. I missed you so much," he said and kissed me again. He kissed me on my neck and slid further down my body. He positioned himself in between my legs and looked up at me with a smirk. "I'm here to make it right baby. Daddy's sorry," he apologized and opened my lips so that he could get to my clitoris. He flicked at it with his tongue and my head fell back against the pillow. I closed my eyes and let him apologize to the part of me that would easily accept it. Now my mind wouldn’t be so easy to convince. She worked off logic not lust or love.

  "He got you waddling already? He just flew in," Ameer joked as Kadar and I stepped into the kitchen two hours later. I hid my face and started making him and myself a plate of Sophie's breakfast. Sophie gave me a small smile while Erin sat in her chair staring at the wall. She had been very depressed since Drew had been missing.

  "Erin, are you okay?" I asked looking at her. She looked at me and her eyes hardened.

  "Bitch do you even fucking care?" I took a step back not expecting her anger to be aimed at me. I didn’t do shit to her ass.

  "Yes, I do. Why wouldn’t I?" Erin tugged on the end of her side braid while Kasam walked over to her. He pulled her into a hug and she started to cry.

  "Let's go lay down," he told her and they walked off. I made Kadar and myself a plate and went to the big round table. I sat down near Kadar and Sophie looked up at me.

  "She's hurting...we all are," she said and started feeding her baby. I understood, but Erin was still wrong for snapping at me like that. My eyes connected with Angel’s and he smiled. We had this discreet stare off until he turned his attention to Kadar.

  "Kadar, I met your fiancé. She really helped us out last night." Kadar kissed me on the cheek and continued to cradle Bella. He had been holding
her since she woke up. I was happy to see that parenting came easy for him.

  "That’s what’s up, but what made you fly in?"

  Angel sat back in his seat and I couldn’t help but to look at the way he filled his suit out. The fabric molded to his skin and I could see the cuts of his muscles through his suit jacket. I looked at Sophie and Sariel and noticed they were also in an Angel trance. This nigga was fine as hell.

  "I wanted to help anyway that I could plus I've decided to move here with my kids. Shit a nigga just looking for a fresh start. I'm sure you all know of my family and the weight we carry. I wanted to form personal relationships with you all so that we could all help each other out. I've been looking into rebuilding Detroit and with the help of the real estate company Ameer owns, I know we could do that. This would be a way for us to all go legit, perhaps," he replied and I couldn’t help but to smile. I loved the sound of that. I went to speak, but Luke rushing into the room cut me off. He looked down at us and he slowly shook his head. He had been out day and night looking for Drew so his eyes were hanging low and his clothes were wrinkled.

  "I got somebody that you all need to see," he said and walked off. We all jumped up and ran out of the room hoping it was Drew. We went down the hall into the living room and on the floor wrapped in a thin blue blanket was a badly beaten Mina. Sophie tried to run up on her and Ameer grabbed her by her waist.

  "I found her in a hospital downtown. She was badly beaten up a gas station and taken to the hospital the same day Aamil got locked up. It took a minute for me to find her name with the check system, but eventually she popped up. It showed the time and date that she was admitted. The paramedics took her in. She’s still fucked up, but she’ll survive. She also had a woman visitor, but she wasn’t there when I picked her up. I’m a go by her spot in a minute to see what she knows though," Luke said with his hands on his hips.